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Thursday, March 31, 2005

heyx.

nth much to update leh. my class seem to be fun-loving. hahax. hope to have lots of fun with them for the 2 years. must have more class-bonding okiex.? n hope the class spirit rep do a good job. hahax. =)

well. im back to my real self after fallin into yet another bout of depression. hahax. well. im okie le. yeas. =)

Monday, March 28, 2005

yeas. i jus received the news tat im still in 24/05. n with the same pple in the first intake too. =) tats sooo good lor. hahax. anyway i wanted to go to the finale night of the orientation de. even cass went back lor. sorry guys. i had to send off my pa who is goin overseas tonight. he's goin all the way to turkey n stoppin over at the middle east. hope nth goes wrong for his trip. =)

Sunday, March 27, 2005

heyx. the pic on the left is taken by my kor at pulau ubin. nicee rite? hahax.

i took this flower de at the edge of the cliff.

okie. im back to update. ive been feeling lazy to update in the past week.

tues was the posting of results. im glad to remain in ajc cos' i feel i already have adapted to tat place n i love my class. many pple, esp frm xms, have been posted to nyjc n leaving a not-very-big grp in ajc. but i feel tat is a good thing cos new environment, new friends. it wld be better for mi to start anew. to forget the past. but tat doesnt mean im comprising my friendship of those frm xms. u all were the greatest thing tat cld ever happen to me. i still cherish ur friendship, even if we were to drift apart one day. once a friend, forever a friend.

anyway i have enjoyed myself during the o2. mayb it's becos' my dwelling was our class plus some more 2nd intake students. n i feel the ogfs have done a really good job. lessons are goin to officially start on tuesday. n i hoping there wld not be any changes to the classes. owell. even if im goin to change class, memories of 24/05 will always be kept in my heart. =)

Saturday, March 19, 2005

heyx. i have soooo much to update. hahax.

well, thanks kry for accompanyin us on thursday. it's always great to have u in our accompany. =) n yahh may we stay as friends foreverx.

thanks to kitson, warren, yunhui, ada, ee teng, lily, phoebe, jiayang n others for remembering my bday. thankxx. =)

yesterday, i met up with my jc frens. although only 6 of us turned up, we still have a lot of fun. we went to marina bay n started to play frisbee. imagine 6 mature teenagers tossing tat frisbee into the air n catchin it. hahax. it was quite awkward so we sat on the grass n played card games. den later went to arcade. long time didnt play such games le. had fun there. den we went to eat steamboam cum bbq. we were the first one at the outlet. hahax. we ate a lot. but i think alex n cass really ate a lot. =X abt 3 ice-creams. hahax. well, the sweet part was tat they actually gave me a birthday surprise. i went to the toilet n when i got back to the table, they started singing bday song. i was really really shocked n didnt know how to react. hahax. the cake was huge n i had difficulty finishin it. unfortunately, my mei was not there with me or else it wld have been better.

well, still wana say thanks to alex, warren, ashley, wenhao n lastly CASS ONG. hahax. thanks u guys for the surprise. =)

cass: im still hoping u'll be able stay in ajc. she bu de ni. =X hahax. these few weeks we spent tog as a class has been a very enjoyable time. gonna miss u. but still, hope u stay pretty n happie always. =)

bday cake.

cass n me.

ash alex wen war cass n me.

cass n me in mrt.

well, today i went to pulau ubin...!!!! oh man it's so fun there lorx. hahax. but the walking wasnt. =X cos we walked for abt 15 km lor. not counting all the slopes here n there. i'll update it tml bahx. i had sooo much fun these few days. =) tml goin to botanic gardens. yeahs.

Thursday, March 17, 2005

happie birthday to myself. =)

yeahs. finally it's my birthday. hahax. okie. now im lost for words. duno wat to say. im 17 !!!

well, i must thank all the ppl who wish me happie birthday. thanks to huiying, weiliang, wenhao, yonghan, shengli, zeqi, michelle, anna n marcus. thanks for singin tat bday song. it was really funny. thanks to those who i have missed out too. im goin to write another entry soon. n thanks to those who gave mi early bday presents. u have made my bday so much more meaningful.

u all make mi feel tat im fortuante n indeed xin fu to have u all as my friends. u all have proven mi tat im not alone. at times, i feel so lonely, feel so depressed over many issues. n many times, i lose control of my feelings n simply cried. but never fail, u all were there beside mi, encouraging mi to be strong. some of u jus asked mi a simple question "are u okie?". but to mi, it meant a lot. cos i know im really not alone. thanks to all of u. love u all. =)

thanks for fulfilling the last promise
n i know there wont be anymore promises.
but still, u dont know how much this meant to mi.
im happy.
n i hope u'll always be happie too.

at times, i hate u.
but in actual fact, i dun.
i know it's isnt ur fautl.
jus hated how things ended.
i'll nv nv forget everything.
those will become my memories.
hidden deep in my heart.

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

woohoo ~ yesterday went to far east plaza, orchard n back to hougang mall. i got some advanced bday presents again. hahax. thankx to my meii n yonghan. =) well, thanks n more thanks to them.

i'll be out the whole week. hahax. first time so slack. well, i guess this is the only time tat we can reallie have fun cos after hols must really study hard. my common test results were v disappointin esp economics, so gotta buck upp.

anyway tml im goin back to ajc for the games' day held by the interact club. hope it wld be fun. =) it will be goin to be a long long day cos i must be in school frm 11.30 to 6pm. den later goin to join my meii n kor at plaza singapura. we goin to watch spongebox squarepants. i bet it's goin to be a really lame but cute show so im lookin to laugh really hard tml. hahax. first time my kor treat us to movie. hahax. my bday is jus 2 days away. yeah. =)

u gave mi false hopes.
i wish u didnt tell mi tat.
but yet again
i duno if i shld b happie
or sad.
if i say tat i dun mis u
den it wld be a lie.
i do.
but it can nv be rekindled.
scars can nv be erased
nor can the tears ever be wiped away.

i was hoping u wld fulfill ur last promise
but till now there's no answer frm u.
all i ask is sth so simple.
yet u make it seem so difficult.
i feel so stupid.
reallie stupid.

Sunday, March 13, 2005

yesterday was our 2405 gathering. well we watched movies at mel's house in the afternoon. it was like a movie marathon. but i didnt understand a single movie there. was i slow or wat? hahax. n tat movie 'eternal sunshine' really darn confusing. i was like staring at the screen for half an hour n cant understand wats going on. n there's tis girl who fell aslp while watching hellboy. lolx. who else but cass ritee? hahax. cute gurl. anyway we gambled for a short while with like 10 cents each cos nobdy had coins with them. hahx. well, i still earned nearly a dollar. =)

we took mel's ma's car to chomp chomp for dinner. imagine 4 girls n 2 boys squeezed behind in the car. hahax. it was reallie a miracle everyone survived the trip. we ate quite a lot at chomp chomp. spent quite a lot too. we later went to coffee bean n crapped. hahax. it was really v fun n i laughed like crazee. overall, i love the outing. so we've planned another one nxt friday. goin to marina bay. n ashley even suggested playing badmitton in the open field. hahax. wat a joke. =P hahax.

anyway hope everyone will have fun during this march holidays. =)

Friday, March 11, 2005

actually today is not the last day of school. so sick of schooling le. sick of attending all the lectures n tutorials. pe too.!!!! anyway thinking back, im considered very guai le lorx. hahax. cos i never pon any lectures or tutorials before. i really v guai rite?? =X hahax. i everytime say i wan to pon but didnt do it in the end. hahax. well, there's still 2 more days of school b4 the posting results are out. so monday will be a rather sad day cos it marks the end of the honeymoon period. i hope to pon on tues. hopefully. =)

tml goin to meet my classmates of 2405. yeahs..!!! hope we have fun there tml. see u guys. =)

well, today i got my first birthday present.!!! i finally got my mp3 + FM player. =) my bday is like 6 days away but my ah di gave me his today. thanks so so so much horx. even though u lied to mi. =( anyway, i nv knew u wld take my words for real. hahax. if u manage to get into tjc, i wish u all the best okiex? hope all ur dreams n wishes will true. im sure u will find ur dream girl one day. u will definitely find ur own happiness. take carex. =)

Monday, March 07, 2005

yesterday i went to pierce my ears. finally. anyway who says it was not painful at all ar? it was quite painful lor. after piercin one of my ear, i told the woman to wait cos' i was controllin the pain. cant stand it le. but the woman didnt wait. =x she jus counted till 3 n did it. well, at least i finally did pierce. yeahx! well, i heard a lot of scary stories abt wat happend to pple aft piercing their ears. it was like freaking me out lor. hahax. so pls stop tellin mii abt wad happend to their ears.

anyway the one week break was really very shiok. hahax. went out everyday except wednesday. in other words, i spent a lot too. haix. first time spent so much in a week. better start saving again le.

well, this week goin to be a short one. n the holidays is here again...!!!

Sunday, March 06, 2005

happy bday. shen ri kuai le. ___* :)

dear kry.
today is ur special day. sorry for not being able to celebrate ur bday on a large scale. but anyway, u big big girl le rite? or shld i say woman? hahax. hope ur bday wishes will all come true. u have been a really special fren to me. we have been good frens since secondary one. n now, we're going to be in the same jc for another 2 years. im really goin to treasure our friendship. hope u will too. u can always msg or call me out to slack with u k? =Pp

hope u'll receive lots lots of presents n like my present too. see ya. :)

to fall in love is always easy...
to start a relationship is always simple...
to build it, is always tough...
to maintain it, is 'better said than done'...
to break off, is 'easier said than done'...
to remain friends after u broke off, is never possible...
to forget the memories is 'always doing but never succeeding'...
to heal the pain within is hard and tough and never near simple...
but one has to try to heal your own heart...
the heart belongs to u...
if u don't heal it and have a space for someone to walk in,
the heart will always be sealed,
memories will never be forgotten,
the pain will never go,
and u will never move on from where u started...

people take wrong directions all the time..
if not,how do we ever realise our mistakes..
and make better choices..
late it might be for your life so far,
but it is never too late for your life ahead..
maybe through wrong directions,
you made the wrong choices..
but does it mean that through the right directions,
you would always make the right choices?
if everything seems like a big trial..
hold on to your faith..
for at least,
you had a chance to live a choice..

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

i also wan to thank this person.

u know who u are. i wan to thank u for all u have done for me. in the past i knew i hav let u done. made many mistakes tat i shldnt have committed. but u didnt blame me. instead u tried to treat nth has ever happened n continue to be my fren. the past year hasnt be well for u. i know tat. to make things worse, i wasnt there for u when i promised i will. i know i break many promises. i know im bad. im sorry for wat i have done. u wrote so many letters to me but i didnt reply one back. time after time, u didnt blame me. whenever im sad or depressed, u kept ur promise by consoling me. u were always there for me. i took all these for granted. but dun worry, frm now on, i will ur good fren. i will rmb my promise n not break it again. really appreciate all u have done for me. hope u will smile often n be happy in watever u do. most imptly, find the girl of ur dreams.

i didnt go out today. stayed at home the whole day. tml most prob will be goin out bah. anyway yesterday went to bugis. walked the entire building n bugis street. bought a skirt which i found out it's too short so im going back there again to change it.

well, i wan to say sorry to huiying.
i know we were badd. but trust me, we didnt do it on purpose. we miss u yesterday too. hope u wont be angry with us le okaes. anyway hope u had fun with ur own frens yesterday. i hope we are still ur frens n not let this incident wreak our friendship okaes. we shld be goin out tml. join us okaes. im always ur mama n u will always be my nui-er.

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

t h a n K s ____ *

many thanks to all who helped me achieved my target . . .

im very satisfied with my results... at least it shows my results really paid off... i really got a big shock for my english n pure geography... i still rmb i got a severe stomachache during my first english paper n was rushing thru the paper... as for geog... i tot it was a goner cos' i didnt know how to answer for the first question, so i just crapped the whole way.... so i think it's really luck tat i did well... anyway to those who didnt reach their target.. dun be too sad kk... results doesnt mean anything... the most impt is tat u are truly happy n healthy... =)

today, i saw him... i was really really really scared to see him... but i wanted to go up to wish him good luck.. wanted to tell him how scared i was for my results....however, i knew i cant.. i didnt have the right to do so....

i was a nobody to u le... i dun even know if im considered a friend to u... i let go cos' i tot there was a possibility tat we still cld be frens but no, u didnt let me to be ur fren... i duno wat mistake i did tat u chose to avoid me... do u detest me tat muchh? do i demand tat muchh frm u? im still concerned abt u n i duno wat happened to u... i really hope we can be frens n not avoid me... u told me we still can be frens.. u were the one who convinced tat we can... i hope u mean it n stick to ur promises... am i willing to be ur fren.. why u are not..? it's really really sadd lor...

dun worry. i wont drop a tear... cos' i know it's isnt worth it... i jus hope u are truly happiee... tats all it matters...

well, tml going to go out again... i think i will be goin out the whole week since we have a week's break... hahax... looking forward to shop tml... first time using my own money to shop for myself... these few days abit crazee abt shopping for clothes.... hope i will get over it soon... hahax... my bday is coming soon too... yeahs...!!! =)

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